Bujhi Hui Shama Ka Dhuan Hoon- NFAK

Original (Urdu)	Translation (English)
raat yun dil mein teri khoyi hui yaad aayi	Last night, your lost memory came to my heart,
jaise veerane mein chupke se bahaar aa jaye	As if spring secretly arrives in the wilderness.
jaise sehraon mein haule se chale baad e naseem	As if a gentle breeze flows in the desert.
jaise beemaar ko bewajah karaar aa jaaye	As if a patient finds peace without reason.
kitne badal gaye hain woh halaat ki tarah	How much they have changed, like the circumstances.
jab bhi mile hain pehli mulakaat ki tarah	Whenever they meet, it feels like the first meeting.
teri jafa kahun ke inayat kahoon isse	Should I call it your cruelty or your favor?
gham bhi mila mujhe kisi saugaat ki tarah	Even sorrow felt like a gift to me.
dil mein ghamon ki aag bhadakne lagi to hum	When the fire of sorrow blazed in the heart,
roye hain phoot phoot ke barsaat ki tarah	I wept uncontrollably, like heavy rain.
hum kya kisi ke husn ka sadka utaarte	How could we offer tribute to anyone’s beauty?
ik zindagi mili hai wo khairaat ki tarah	The life we’ve received feels like charity.
bujhi hui shama ka dhuan hoon	I am the smoke of an extinguished candle,
aur apne markaz ko ja raha hoon	And I am heading toward my origin.
ke dil ki hasrat mit chuki hai	My heart doesn't have wishes anymore
ab apni hasti mita raha hoon	now i am destroying my existence.
teri hi surat ke dekhne ko	To gaze upon your face,
buton ki tasveeren la raha hoon	I am getting images of idols
ke khoobiyan sabki jama karke	Gathering everyone’s virtues,
tera tasawwur jama raha hoon	I am creating an image of you.
kafan mein khud ko chhupa liya hai	I have shrouded myself in a coffin,
ke tujh ko parde ki ho na zehmat	So that you are not burdened by veils.
naqaab apne liye banakar	By making a veil for myself,
hijaab tera utha raha hoon	I am lifting your veil.
udhar wo ghar se nikal pade hain	There, they have left their house,
idhar mera dam nikal raha hai	Here, I am losing my breath.
ilahi kaisi hai ye qayamat	Oh God, what kind of calamity is this?
wo aa rahe hain main ja raha hoon	They are coming while I am departing.
muhabbat insaan ki hai fitrat	Love is the nature of humankind,
kahaan hai ibkan e tark e ulfat	where is the possibility of leaving love,
wo aur bhi yaad aa rahe hain	They come to mind even more,
main unko jitna bhula raha hoon	The more I try to forget them.
roz kehta hoon bhool jaun unhein	Every day, I tell myself to forget them,
roz ye baat bhool jata hoon main	But every day, I forget this resolve.
nahin aati to unki yaad barson tak nahin aati	For years, their memory doesn’t come to me,
lekin jab yaad aate hain to aksar yaad aate hain	But when they do, they often come to mind.
zubaan pe labdaik har nafas mein	"Here I am," on my lips with every breath,
jabeen pe sajda hai har kadam pe	A bow on my forehead with every step.
yun ja raha butkade ko naatik	Thus, I proceed to the temple, eloquently,
ke jaise kaabe ko ja raha hoon	As if I am going to the Kaaba.